Nurse who 'died after heart exploded' says 'no human word' describes what she saw

Nurse who 'died after heart exploded' says 'no human word' describes what she saw Canadian nurse Julia Evans suffered a severe allergic reaction to lilies at work, triggering anaphylaxis and cardiac arrest The simple act of inhaling pollen from a flower arrangement nearly cost a nurse her life. Julia Evans, from Canada, described how, while medical staff fought to save her, she drifted into a peaceful realm where she was reunited with deceased loved ones from years past. Speaking with podcaster Jeff Mara, she recounted how the extraordinary ordeal unfolded. Having just arrived for her shift at the hospital, she began to notice a "scratchy" sensation in her throat. She explained her thought process as she tried to identify the cause, saying: "You go through very rapidly in your head; 'Did I come in contact with something? Did I eat something funny? Do I have a cold?'. "You kind of scan your environment...and as I quickly scan I can start feeling my throat getting tighter and tighter. It felt like sandpaper as I was swallowing. And so as I scanned my environment I looked straight ahead of me and at the nursing station there was this beautiful bouquet of lilies." Julia revealed she was aware of her lily allergy, though she hadn't considered it particularly serious and would simply steer clear of them when she spotted any. Yet on that ill-fated morning in 2018, Julia inexplicably walked towards the blooms – setting off a severe and life-threatening allergic response. "At that point, I was already starting to turn blue," she recalled. Julia remarked that, if you're going to experience anaphylactic shock, a hospital is arguably the ideal location to be. Her colleagues sprang into action; one dashed to fetch some medication, one rang Julia's husband, and another remained with her attempting to keep her composed. She added: "It was just her and I sitting in the the staff room together, and she was staring at me, paralysed watching me die in front of her ... all I kept thinking was 'I'm drowning in air'." Moments later, a doctor burst into the room. "He saw the state of me," Julia said. "He saw the colour of me. He saw the desperation through my eyes." The doctor administered an emergency injection of epinephrine – the primary component of EpiPens – but an unexpected mistake transformed a grave situation into a fatal one. "We both locked eyes with each other and in that instant we both realised it was the wrong drug," Julia explained. The concentration of epinephrine that had been loaded into the syringe was ten times higher than the doctor realised – sending Julia's heart into overdrive. Even as the crisis developed, part of Julia was still attempting to manage the medical emergency erupting within her own body. She added: "All of a sudden I was just like The Hulk... that was the epinephrine that was surging through my body, I started breathing and I remember just pushing everything away." Recognising she was experiencing cardiac arrest, Julia hurled her safety glasses, keys and lanyard across the room and shouted: "Rip off my clothes. Get leads on me get pads on me right now!". In that life-threatening moment, while enduring excruciating pain, Julia's mind suddenly drifted to loved ones she had lost. She recalled: "I started feeling how my best friend had died because she had shot herself, and it felt like the back of my head had blown away. "I felt what she had gone through and I was letting that go. And then that was the same day that my stepmother years prior had died in my arms in Mexico. She had drowned and had a massive heart attack." She added: "So then I got to feel her and at the same point I also got to feel where my biological mother died in 1983 from a brain aneurysm and it was that feeling and I could feel them and like that moment of I'm going down I didn't realise at the time it was their pain that I was feeling." However, while Julia's thoughts were spiralling, her body had shut down. "That's when they lost me," she revealed. "I went into it's called pulseless VTAC. I had no pulse. I had hit such a frequency within my heart that my heart exploded ...there was so much medication that it just stopped and so when my heart went and they started working on me, [my skin] went from blue to pale to the grey the colour of death and I was flaccid on the bed." In that moment, Julia said she "went somewhere completely different." It was an absolute black void, she described, where "everything – your belief systems your senses your body are pixelated away". Julia's anxiety was soon soothed, however. She recalled: "I distinctly heard my mother who had died in 1983 saying 'It's okay, honey. Mommy's here, don't cry. And so as I heard her like actually hearing her as if she was standing right beside me." As time appeared to freeze, Julia experienced a vision of her colleagues frantically fighting to rescue her. She continued: "I was hovering over my body and I was probably two feet over my body. I could feel them working on me and I was screaming in my mind 'I would come back if I could.'". Then came the chilling words that stopped her in her tracks: "We lost her again." At that precise moment, she said "everything else changed" as Julia found herself surrounded by extraordinary light and vivid colour, adding: "And now I'm experiencing everything, but there's no human word completely and fully. And the only way I know how to describe it is there was so much love within that moment that I was gifted the greatest gift and that's that self-love. "This light was just so peaceful, and it felt like home. I could sense every single person that had passed away before me standing there." Julia savoured this fleeting moment of tranquillity and clarity, before being abruptly dragged back to reality. She went on: "I felt 'wham!' and this time I felt totally thrown back into my body... I hit so hard." Following a brief period of bewilderment, during which Julia wasn't sure whether she was looking at a long-haired hospital junior or Jesus, she came to realise she had survived: "I instinctively looked down and when I looked down I noticed that I was completely naked, like a brand new baby. "I said: 'who cut my favourite blue bra?'". It was a deeply traumatic ordeal, she explains, and it took several months for her to come to terms with it. She went on to say: "It was a year after my near-death experience... the anniversary made me realise that I actually went and saw the light and I felt my mum and I I actually experienced this." Julia reveals she undertook a complete reassessment of her life following her harrowing encounter, and has since developed a heightened psychic sensitivity that enables her to see into the very souls of others.